This week was the first I’ve ever missed a check-in. I felt so ill on Tuesday that I completely forgot about it until 10pm that night. I considered doing a belated check-in on Wednesday but I just wasn’t sure it was worth it so I decided not to.
Yesterday was a surprisingly productive day for me! I got way more done than I would ever have expected. I had an idea for an article and, while I’ve really been struggling to write lately, it’s very relevant to me right now so I’m hoping that will give me the boost to actually finish it. If not, I have something less serious but still disability related to put out instead.
I also managed a very impressive amount of physical activity. I went to a library class then I showered when I got home and, a couple hours later, I even did my nails! It may not sound like much but that’s more than I’ve done in a single day for years. It was like a self-care day for me. I’ve been stressing myself out about finishing my dad’s present in time so it was nice to take a break from that.
Speaking of, I think I’ve made good progress! My grandparents are coming into town Saturday so I probably won’t get much done then but that’s okay. I got really frustrated after making a mistake and not being able to figure out what I’d done wrong, but I was able to fix it! I have the next step started and I’m feeling pretty good about it. I’m trying not to stress about it being perfect because I know what matters is the thought and dozens of hours that go into it, but it’s very difficult. I’m trying, though!
I’ve been playing Little Kitty Big City more, too. I’m trying to get 100% on it. Not for any particular reason, just for fun. The only other game I’ve gotten 100% in was Papa’s Freezeria Deluxe. I wasn’t even trying but it felt very nice. Maybe it’s just because I watch so many 100% videos on youtube. Who’s to say?
On a less fun note, I’ve been having kind of a funky mental time. The article idea I mentioned is actually about most of the reason why. Part of it is also because I’m closer to getting my GED than ever—which I am incredibly excited about, don’t get me wrong—and it’s sort of been stirring up all these thoughts about what happens next. I have a major passion for history, I love to write both these posts and fiction and I’d always planned on going to school for those two things. Recently, though, I’ve just been considering whether that’s a good idea. I love the piano too and, while I’m not particularly proficient now, that seems like the most likely thing I could theoretically make some sort of career out of. Not a career in the sense of an abled person, but something to give me a bit of income.
I just never know what to prioritize. I probably wouldn’t have to take out a loan if I go for history and writing, because that could all be done at a community college, but education in music performance would—as far as I can tell—require a private school. I have been talking with my mom about that and she made the very good point that to do a freelance and taking gigs sort of thing, I wouldn’t really need a formal education. Just the ability itself, which can be acquired with piano classes. That would definitely cost money we don’t have right now, but certainly less than trying to go to college. Not to mention that to get in to said college, I’d probably need the classes anyway as you need to audition to get in.
I’ve been rambling for quite some time now, so I’ll probably end it here. I’ve just been thinking a lot about that recently and I sort of needed to get it out of my head and into writing. Thanks for bearing with me and I’ll see you again soon!